I am interested in recalling memories, how they change, morph and bend the truth. Each work I create is an attempt to remember something that I can’t quite recall, or really don’t want to remember honestly. All painful memories should be discouraged from recollection, but without giving them some respect we deny how they shaped who we really are. It is traumatic to suddenly recall something that use to haunt your every waking thought and then explore how that old damage has changed to an enlightened advantage. I want to pay homage to the experiences I can’t fully remember that make me who I am today.
In my paintings and sculptures, I use cardboard as a base for the structure. I rely on the premise of mementos being stored in boxes; a reflection of the many moves I made over my lifetime. Packing everything I own and trusting that layers of paper will protect my items. Opening boxes at new homes and remembering as I unpack the memories attached to the objects. Building on paper as a source, I use a variety of paper such as tissue, rice and construction paper to create imbedded texture on the surface of my work. Some of the paper is torn away to create friction and tension that memories can provide, underneath the tears reveal hidden layers that mimic clarity.
Color is used to express the emotion behind the memory. Bright and dark colors dominate my pallet choices based on my mood and gravitating away from pale baby hues. Geometric shapes, such as squares, lines and rectangles are used to mimic order among the chaos and my love of drafting and architecture. My finished objects have a lived-in look of blistered skin, weary travel and antiqued history with flashes of small clear spaces that contrast the surface.
I want my viewers to enjoy looking at my work from a far, and to find small pieces of beauty in the destruction up close.